History Repeats Itself

They've deluded, derogated and then detested
and all this have me desensitized
All my emotions were manifested
their actions were never realized

Was I to be kind and forgiving?
after all the pains they've inflicted
It is hell enough to be living
and is least what is predicted

I thought I had risen above
from all the agony of past,
from choking smoke of flaring love
but there i lay, tired and tried, at last

Tyrannical destiny's manoeuvre
has to have me gifted this much
As a sweet souvenir
of my lost love's touch

When someone so close to you
suffers through same agony,
you believe, you've got a role due
repeat yourself, rewind life's history

Strong before, I cried this time
once again on my fatality
I'm a victim of a repeated crime
my heart can't stand double reality

From Crust To Core

Appearances are often deceiving
dark and obscure is Its clout
no space for perceiving
and nothing flows out

Yet openly i give and accept
none has seen all the way through
only what you see is what you get
rest drowning in my emotional hues

From the most dense forest
to the clear sky open fields
my core is at rest
breathing in the guarded shield

Bubble that encase my core
is tumbling in outer turmoil
waves of anger and confusion strike the shore
yet firmly rooted it remains in its soil

The vacuum I've build around
keeps it safe in its own heaven
away from all the worldly sound
I have my core yet maiden