Knowing yourself can also be an excruciating experience when you encounter faces like selfishness and cruelty. You blanket it in layers of vivid reasons and feelings, bring your conscience to believe who you are is what you should be. Yet deep within a voice cracks the loosely build wall of fake reasons - a voice of your consciousness. It calls you to do the right but do you have courage, courage to choose the right. It is so easy to look the other way, to ignore, especially when the right brings pain. You are willing to let the blame fall on fate, circumstances or even other people. You want to believe that you hadn't really wanted to be mean. But the truth is you had actually meant it, it's just that taking its responsibility means acceptance of your fault. And who's upto it?
It is so easy to acknowledge pain in you, to recall when you are hurt, what it means to be betrayed. Has anyone ever looked at the other side of the coin, of inflicting pain on others, of knowing that you are the culprit of hurting someone? You know how it feels to be ignored, to have your love and care neglected but you do not give a second thought when you choose to please yourself above one's love and loyalty.
Being a culprit by choice is self-deploring. What is even more disgraceful is having a heart to continue feeling so. After all, we all are human. We all are authorized to make mistakes. Yes, we are. But equally we should learn the art of forgiving when someone else hurts you, knowing you can be on the other side as often.
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